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the past.

Fri Oct 9, 2009, 5:37 PM
This account will always be a reminder and a remainder of my past, I suppose.
I almost miss how I used to be, sans the awkward obsessing and random depressing moods.

:devxhappienssfailure:

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  • Mood: Dazed
  • Listening to: Animal I've Become - Three Days Grace

I can't escape this hell.

Fri Aug 22, 2008, 8:04 PM

So I've moved on.
Find me.
Talk to me.
let'sbefriends.


~xHappinessFailure

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  • Mood: Dazed
  • Listening to: Animal I've Become - Three Days Grace

Oh, it feels just like we're losing control

Sat May 31, 2008, 11:08 PM

I'm so fucking happy.
I feel so free.
I know I've been saying this alot lately, but really, it's true.

But I'm tired of how immature people are being lately, ohwell.
I guess that's how it is.

I've been listening to a ton of really awesome music lately.
Metro Station, Three Days Grace, My Chemical Romance.
Good bands.
New favourites.
I've been a bit uneasy about The Used ever since I saw a music video for one of their songs and Bert threw up on the audience.
Ewww =(

I went to a Bat Mitzvah party tonight, it was pretty epic.
I miss those things. Nobody ever seems to have crazy parties anymore.
Not like those...
Where the music is loud, everyone's dancing, and it's just so much fun.
Yea, I miss those.

On another note, I hate people who are stereotypical.
Really.
I wore fishnet gloves to the party, and I have all these preps from the Hebrew School bitching me out, calling me the Emo Goth and other shit.
Seriously.
Get the fuck over yourself.
That above sentence can be said for a lot of things, lately.

But I'm trying not to worry.
I'm trying to not care.
And it's working.
I don't need that anymore.
I don't need that.
I'm free;
I can do whatever I want.
and you can't stop me
.

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  • Mood: Questionable
  • Listening to: Control - Metro Station

Hah, wow.

Fri May 30, 2008, 1:37 PM

Despite alot of things,
I feel really happy.
And like a great big load has been lifted off my chest,
like I'm finally free.

I can't help but to think that something is missing,
but oh well.
I'm sure in the long run I don't need them anyway(:

Can't wait for next yearrr.
Can't wait for the summerrrr.
Just can't waittttt.
<333333
!

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  • Mood: Panic
  • Listening to: Shake it - Metro Station

/:

Thu May 29, 2008, 1:53 PM
I feel like I'm being torn.
I feel like I was betrayed.
I feel like I'm being talked about behind my back.
I feel like I'm to blame for everything that's going on.
I wish I could go back in time.
I wish I was a year older.
I wish I had a unique talent other than drawing, which isn't unique since this year.
I wish I could stand out, and be noticed by those who I wish to notice me.
I wish I knew who I was, because I don't know who I am anymore.
I feel like I'm always trying to be somebody I'm not.
I feel like I do what I do to be liked.
I wish I could come up with something to say when I talk to people.
I wish I wasn't so socially awkward, and have to try to joke around. I think when I do that, I'm not funny and make other people feel awkward.
I wish I didn't eat so much, even though I seem to not get fat.
I wish was a better student.
I wish I didn't fight with my mother so much.
I feel like I'm not worth anything to my friends.
I feel like I can't trust anybody.
I feel like I'm unimportant, that I don't matter and I'm looked down upon(no pun intended). Almost like. . .my feelings don't matter. That I'm insignificant.

I don't like this.
Not.
One.
Little.
Bit.

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